Title Means...

When starting a blog on a popular site like Blogger you need to come up with a unique title that hasn't been used. I am practical and like things with meaning. My other blog, killinggoliath, is a title that I came up with years ago. The meaning behind it is unimportant right now but it does have meaning.

Re-Searching For Jesus came from my desire to tell my story as part of His body. In a sense I feel like I lost Jesus for a while. Not that I didn't believe in him anymore but that I lost what he desires from us. I feel like I became a religious person, not a faithful person.

In every journey there are missteps along the way. Tumbles if you will that make us refocus on the path before us. I feel like I tumbled a ways and need to regain my focus on the path set out before me. Like the poem Footprints that adorns many photos, posters, calendars, postcards, etc. Jesus picked me up for a while. I think I've asked him to set me down and allow me to walk along side him for a bit.

So the Jesus I am re-searching for isn't the Son, Lord and Savior per se, he's not lost and I know where he is, but it's the true meaning behind what Jesus is and left for us to follow that I search for now. He left us a gift and a guide. I long to find the true meaning for this life on earth that Jesus taught to his disciples and how I'm to live it out.

As I write this a beautiful song is playing in the background. It is sung by Kristene Mueller and the words are:

Beautiful Man
beautiful God
You're more than worth my time
You're more than worth these longings of my heart
left unfulfilled
just for a time

beautiful Man
beautiful God
You're more than worth my time
You're more than worth these longings of my heart
left unfulfilled
just for a time

and i know You don't come as easy as some
but i will watch and pray
i will watch and pray


beautiful Man
beautiful God
You're more than worth my time
You're more than worth these longings of my heart
left unfulfilled
just for a time

and i know You don't come as easy as some
but i will watch and pray
i will watch and pray

take it all
take it all
just give me Jesus
just give me Jesus

take it all
take it all
just give me Jesus
just give me Jesus

i don't want any other Lover
i don't want any other Lover

all of my devotion
belongs to this man

Highlights mine.

Amen!

So for now I will record on this blog my story and how I'm Re-Searching For Jesus.